Funny Fairy Story

Since I was invited to share my story on a radio talk show about other dimensions and how I fell into sharing fair journeys, I was excited!  No one had ever asked me about how I got there and it was fun to be recognized.  The show was on a Sunday at 5pm and on that same weekend, I was teaching Sunday morning during the Rose Heart Retreat in Austin.  The retreat is an annual weekend full of conscious activities like Ecstatic Dance, Circling, Sound Healing, you name it.  I loved it!  And this was my second year to be there so I offered to teach a segment before dance on Sunday morning.  Plus, as the timing turned out, it was Easter.

That weekend I had started out camping on Thursday when I arrived early before I met so many friends who had offered their guest room for me to crash.  Even though I love camping, I would always rather spend time with friends in community than alone.  So, I accepted and spent the night with a friend who is an amazing cook and caterer on Saturday night.

The weekend flew by and I was just as elated as I was exhausted, but I knew I had to leave around 2pm to get home in time to be settled and online for the radio interview at 5pm.  I planned to be calm and in the silence of my office so that I could focus on the conversation. What happened was not in the plans.

Before I left Austin, my host offered some Indian food before I got on the road.  I should have said No, but I adore Indian food.  Quickly, we sat down as she reheated the curry.  I can hear her now, when she commented that something was just not right with the coconut milk.  She thought maybe she had opened a can that was a bit funky. This information flew in one ear and out the other as I visited with the other guests seated at the kitchen table getting ready to dig in.

Fast forward and now I am driving home and noticing all sorts of traffic as I continue.  It’s frustrating.  I am constantly looking at my watch, checking my speed, planning ahead if I will need gas, and talking to google about when I will arrive to my destination.  Google says 5:19pm.

Stressed out, because that is not what I intended, I speed up and then try again talking to Google trying to change the trajectory to no avail.

Around 4:40pm the host, my new acquaintance calls me to see if I’m ready to go and I finally tell him that it’s been a SNAFU sort of day, and with traffic and my stomach feeling upset, I am not sure if I am going to make it home like I had planned.  He giggles to himself and tried to hide it, but I heard it and knew that the universe was just playing with me as usual when I didn’t listen to my intuition and left promptly at 2pm as planned.

He says, “No problem, I will be on the call with the program and when you get home, just call me back and we’ll start your interview then.”  Thinking to myself, Great, I can now leave this random place I had found behind a gas station trying to find a place that is not so noisy so that I could talk on the phone clearly for the radio interview.  Mind you, the air conditioning in my aging Kia was not cooling and with two dogs in the car, I was battling the sound and heat by rolling down the windows, to which we could all get some air, but then we couldn’t hear a thing!  So when he called, I had to roll up the windows to answer and hear him audibly, while this triggered the dogs to go into major panting mode.  It was a mess.

So when he says, No Problem, get on home and get settled and call me back.  I put the girls back in the car, and sped out back to 290 since I was about 15 miles away but it was almost 5pm.  I was determined to make it home quickly and as I got on the highway, and I am checking my blind spot to make sure I could get on safely because of all the construction and crazy traffic, I turn to accelerate and get on the highway when one of my pillows that had been bouncing around the back seat because of all the wind just blows directly in front of me and for a moment I can’t see where I am going.  Instinctively and with a bit of rage, my left hand grabs it and snaps it out the window with one swift move.  It happened so fast.  I couldn’t believe what had just happened.  And it was the perfect side sleeper pillow with a cover… As I looked out the rear view window I could see it disappear under the cars and then it made me laugh. WTF.  This just goes along with my drive.  But I will get there, I told the world, don’t you worry!

I’m about 10 miles from my house, driving pretty fast when my stomach starts sending shooting pains throughout my gut.  The pain had started once I turned onto 290 in Hempstead but I’d ignored the little rumblings.  But now, the pain was imminent.  Something was happening and it was not happy.  Again, I had to rationalize stopping to use the bathroom before getting home and as I stared out the front window keeping an eye out for traffic, I thought, which bathroom would I use? To the left was a nice gas station but that would add minutes to my drive getting there and then getting back on the road, nope can’t do it.  I must stay on course.  OK then, I thought to myself, there is a nasty old Exxon to my right, that I know I’ve used because it’s on the cycling route when I used to ride years ago.  I remember that place.  Immediately, I pull over, get out and go directly to the bathroom while I am pissed off and thinking, let’s see just how nasty this bathroom can be, just show me!

I think it’s about 5pm now and I am hustling so quickly, I hit the bathroom within seconds.  I locate the larger stall and go in. Quickly I survey the seat, clean it off and line it with paper before I am urged to quickly sit down and let it all out.  It was one of those religious experiences with my eyes rolling up in my head, my mouth is open and the relief just keeps coming and I can’t believe this is happening in this place, OMG, look at the air filter on the ceiling, do you think they’ve changed it in the last ten years? NO!

Then, I hear the bathroom door open and two young girls talking as they come in.  At this point, I quickly flushed the toilet and as I look down, nothing has moved in the toilet.  The little water came and went, so I flushed again.  This time getting up to look at the funky design of this toilet that doesn’t actually get water to the entire bowl.  And the smell has already penetrated the entire stall to my horror. So, I flush a third time and personally will the water to come into the bowl and take the excrement away like it was designed to do.  That’s when I hear the young girl say, “You can’t flush THAT smell.”

As they are standing outside my stall, for some reason, and I am cleaned up and ready to exit when I just stop and look at the little silver sliding lock in complete acceptance of what is happening. The world slowed down for a mili second for me as I caught my thoughts and for a moment I always never wanted to leave the stall of embarrassment, but then I knew I had to go for my interview.  I unlocked the stall and within a flash I came out and saw what looked like two high school aged young girls huddling together outside my door looking at each other in dismay, as I turned to the right and headed straight to the sink to wash my hands saying, I am SO sorry! OMG That Coconut milk did NOT like me!

I washed my hands trying to avoid making eye contact, grabbed a towel to dry my hands and left the bathroom with these two girls still huddled together in horror staring and talking to each other as I wafted out.

I quickly walk/ran out of the store and as soon as I exited through the door, I saw a car with young parents obviously waiting for their kids to use the restroom. I quickly turned to the left and got into my car and left.  Knowing that those two girls would come out telling their version of the story and then their parents would say, “We saw her come out!”

I’m not done.

I get in the car feeling so empty and nauseous and relieved that I stopped for myself or I would not have made it home in time for that explosion. I am thinking to myself, Note to self: you ARE averse to funky coconut milk.  This has happened before and you didn’t need to eat when you should have been on the road at that time.

Then, I get a call and there is no one on the other end until I hear the coordinator say, She’s on hold and we are going live soon! Completely in over drive by now, all systems are code red, I roll up the windows so that I can hear what is happening and put on my nice voice when I really want to blow a gasket.

Speeding to my exit, I am hot, we are tired and wind blown, down a pillow and having dropped off ten pounds of coconut crap, I come flying in the house with the dogs and my hair is crazy from the wind, I am sweaty and already talking on the phone for my interview hoping that all the back ground noise is not noticeable.  When my dad looks up to say Hello and I just put my hand up with an angry face for no one to talk to me as I raced to my side of the house.

In my room, I have finally made it and I am excited when the radio host asks me about my own journey to host experiences for people that include coming closer to their own intuition.  I am now by my own sink talking about how fairy’s decide if you are worthy of communicating or not, so it’s best to set an intention to be clear and honest with yourself so that you can use all your senses to be available if they choose to come to you.  The conversation keeps drawing me in as the information just starts coming out and there are stories and ideas and experiences that no one has ever asked me about and I know exactly what to say and how to respond.  It was thrilling.  All this to get into the zone.

Until my stomach signaled another visit to the toilet.  Without skipping a beat during the interview, I drop my yoga pants and go to the restroom and strategically use mute on my phone to do my business when I am not answering a question.  I seem to have become a pro at this skill from working throughout my days and responding to friends and clients no matter what I am doing at the time.  And this makes me laugh.

From being so sweaty and nasty from the drive, I decide not to pull up my tights because the call is almost over and I need to take a full on shower.  So, imagine me now finishing up the call from the sink with my pants down and sharing beautiful stories of how we can pierce the veil different ways including by waking up at 4:30am to pray or meditate and this is called the Amrit Veil.

Then, the hosts are thanking me for such an interesting and exciting call and I am happy that I was invited and thrilled to be there to respond yet again, obviously no matter what the circumstances.

When I hung up my phone I immediately let out a huge sigh of releif that it’s over and it feels fantastic! I am exhausted as I look at myself in the mirror but I still smile at myself.  You’ve GOT this Sandy!

Now GO and shower your Nasty self!

The Whole Hand

As with most people, everyone has ups and downs in life.  The lesson is to remember that these experiences are just like the weather and if you stay focused and centered, the unpleasant experiences will soon pass.  And as an intuitive person with numerous gifts and super powers, even I have bad days! For me, since I am sensitive to the energetic powers of the universe, I can tell you when these conscious shifts are happening because all I have to do is look at my life.  During the last big shift here are five things that happened to me that when you count on one hand give you the whole hand and that’s when I know to stop everything I’m doing and get centered, take care of myself and focus within until the storm passes.  For instance, here are five major experiences that seemed to go on in tandem over a span of two weeks while I cried,  “Uncle” until I got the lesson and now I can teach them:

  1. Turning on the Recycling Service – One day, seemingly out of nowhere, I was having breakfast outside on the patio, like I normally do when I got a verbal kick in the pants from my dad.  What I couldn’t understand is where all the rage came from that originated about the fact that I needed to take out the bin for recycling.  The only problem was, we didn’t have that service anymore and I was in the process of having it turned on.  This led me to my own internal journey of self-discovery before returning to fill out the form and turning on the recycling service.  I’m sorry.  Please Forgive Me.  Thank you.  I love you.
  2. Allowing Zoe to Cross the Rainbow Bridge – Within this time, I took Zoe and Giselle to local dog parks and both times was shamed for having Zoe with me when she was visibly a ghost of herself and outwardly looked like a sad zombie. This was another biggie for me.  It took a nice older lady who shared her own story with me and of letting her dog go that finally sunk in.  I finally saw her from a different perspective as having done her lovely job with me for more than fourteen years and she was just waiting for me to put on my big girl pants and call the vet to make a date.  To this day, I’ve never been able to cry at the drop of a hat until now.  Zoe was so tired and so ready to go that she gave me multiple signs that I was doing the right thing and when it happened, she was happyer.  Plus, she has already come to see me on multiple occasions.  She is everywhere now.  And I think of her every single day thanking her for being my companion during my transition from married to single.  I think that was the biggest reason why I couldn’t see a life without her.  It was because I was afraid of being without her and alone.  It did take some time to learn how to sleep without her but I am adjusting and feeling stronger every day.  Thank you Zoe!  I’m sorry.  Please Forgive Me.  Thank you.  I love you.
  3. Ending the Illusion of a Partner – And during this same period of time, while everything seemed like it was crashing down around me, I turned to a friend who has also been a partner over the past ten years.  He always seems to be there for me but only when I really needed it.  He must be an angel because you’d never know he existed in between the calls and visits.  But during this time, he shared other examples of how vindictive he could be with his clients and then how passive aggressive he was being with another woman when I could clearly see that he’d been filling a void for me that he couldn’t fill for anyone including himself.  He had been part of my own fairy tale illusion and when I finally got enough courage to state the obvious, I could actually feel that he had been enjoying my energy when I needed to cut it off once and for all.  And boy did I get so much energy back!  I had no idea I had been carrying around that illusion while he was a willing participant for his own distorted needs.  He was also a remnant from my past patterns that are now recycled and empowered solely for me!  I’m sorry.  Please Forgive Me.  Thank you.  I love you.
  4. Owning my Power – During those two weeks, I stayed with a girlfriend who had also been filling a need for me to get away over the years.  Her house is darling, she has a really cool job and her life is totally fun.  I love her.  Yet, when I was there and concerned about staying out of her way while I was going through my own metamorphosis, I seemed to grow myself right out of her space. I was experimenting with my own Akashic clearing gifts starting with myself, which I always do before sharing with my friends and clients, and it was powerful.  So powerful that I was able to get myself out of my own way, and boy am I stubborn so that the transformations could complete its process on me. Before I left to house sit for another friend and client, I offered the same deep transformative experience for her and once I was able to tap into her Akashic records I just started sharing all the messages that had been waiting for her to receive.  Then, before I left and she was now out of town, we had both shifted so much energy that her guest room and the office was ready to transform itself when I moved a massive shelf away from some windows to the opposite wall.  Let’s just say, everything continued to just fall into place!  Even when she returned from her trip she kept sending images of her new space as she kept moving stuff around and it looked beautiful, open, spacious and brand new!  We were both brand new.  I’m sorry.  Please Forgive Me.  Thank you.  I love you.
  5. Acknowledging My Feminine Ancestors – This has also been an underlying theme during the big shift that I experienced earlier this year.  And here it is.  Acknowledging all the women in my lineage, all the children that didn’t get to say their names or live a life, all the power they came to this world with and then never got to use!  One of my friends and gurus helped me notice this within minutes of ushering Zoe across the rainbow bridge.  And of course, since I adopted her when I was finally willing to accept the fact that I was not going to have a big family like I had imagined.  And for fourteen years she was with me the entire way.  Yet there were so many others that had voices that were never heard and I was able to tap into their energy, hear their cries and give them the love they needed by acknowledging them one by one.  Another powerful ceremony just happened one day with a friend at the Springs that spurred so much recognition of the signs that were all around me.  I was finally able to connect the dots and they all made perfect sense.  Oh, yeah.  Now I get it.  Right on.  I’m sorry.  Please Forgive Me.  Thank you.  I love you.

Each experience revealed a different sort of process and I am here to share the tools needed to expedite the process.  Working with so many friends, clients, family members, guests and even strangers allows our union to transmute the energy safely, quickly and with me as your guide.  It’s been a blessing and I love how the path continues to unfold.  When you are ready to focus on your own gifts and would love a guide and find yourself reading these posts or thinking about what it would be like, then let me know.  Think of me as your Spiritual Advocate since I expertly guide you towards a more harmonious lifestyle with fun and laughter exposing you to a whole new world.

xoxoSparkle

Energy Clearing: White Butterflies Everywhere!

When I was at Burning Man last Fall for the first time, I ended up with some friends at Shamandome.  They were all going to take a class on finding out about their spirit animal, to which I just laughed.  I said, “I can tell you that!”  But that’s not as much fun as this class.  We partnered up and quickly within the first guided visualization, my partner could see my spirit animal which is a white crane.  But my point in telling you this story is because the question I posed at the end, was, Where am I going to live?  And even this week during a women’s group, this was my exact same question.  And the answer is still the same.  White Butterflies are all the little journies I get to go on since it’s just so fun.  And this is also what I call being Full Service for my friends and clients because it includes your surroundings which are having an impact on your life even as you read this because everything is made of energy.  Plus, it all makes sense when I’ve been teaching, coaching advocating and traveling and house/dog/cat/plant sitting since I graduated from college in the 90’s.  And here is a peek into that world so that you can understand what I am talking about:

  • While in Colorado in 2016 I was house sitting and camping for months on end and it was so much fun for me.  One of my friends, who I’ve known for years became a client with her first session when I was focused on tapping and I soon discovered that my body is also a mirror for messages she was not receiving for herself.  She attended a New Moon Sisterhood Circle and then offered her place to me while she was out of the country for six weeks.  The only problem was, I was in Texas teaching at a retreat and she needed a ride to the airport.  Excitedly, I drove back to Colorado, took her to the airport and when I got back to her home the real work began. While working with clients via Skype at her place, it just seemed lonely and when I would go to bed, I always felt the need to keep the bedroom door closed.  Soon, I saged the entire house, set up my stuff as if I lived there and that’s when the visits began.  First, there was tapping on the glass in the middle of the night and once I texted my friend, she confirmed that it also happened to her and she told me about her own experience with tapping in the middle of the night.  But then, while in her living area, I also felt energetically pulled and pushed and that’s when my friend finally revealed to me that she had lived there with her ex-husband before they divorced.  This took on a whole new level for energetically clearing and blessing her home.  Soon, there was another session focused on the home that included more intentions to rid the house of energetic baggage and before it was done my friend texted me wondering what was happening at home because she was feeling much lighter and happier for the first time in years! This is what I call Full Service.  It was because I cared about her, and we’d worked together and she trusted me with her place that over time I was able to not only uplift her and the feelings in her apartment but also my own business was able to support my visit to Burning Man and a move to Telluride.  We both came out ahead in the end.  And while I was there, she received a new appliance from her landlord while I received gifts from everyone around me.  I loved living there, for the time being, met great people who inspired me to go to Telluride and even went on a super fun date.  She helped me and I helped her.  There was an energetic exchange so that both of us could experience our lives in the present moment with increased happyness and fun!

As a full-service house sitter, it is my pleasure to offer the following opportunities to clear, organize and uplift your home including:

  1. House Sitter – Keeping your valuable space full of positive energy as I am an adult who has owned homes and lived in Europe. I enjoy the placement of things and find that some tweaks can be made while I am here that you may not even notice.  First and foremost is the flow of energy including furniture and lighting. And the refrigerator will also be left completely organized among other things.
  2. Dog Sitter – Giselle and I have traveled all over and together we love to visit and take care of your pets while you are out of town.  Typically my schedule is super flexible and I spend large amounts of time in silence as I work as a writer. Plus, your pets won’t have to go to a kennel or have a visitor show up once or twice a day. Your little friends, aka your pets, get loved and will have a companion at night at home with them.
  3. My favorite things to do depending on what you need is offer suggestions on where to place furniture when you are ready.  You can do it yourself or I can help.  Plus, I love to hang pictures.  I had a housemate once that needed a place to stay during her divorce. When she moved into her new home, she called me and in one day I hung over 50 pictures all over her entire new house.  It was the best!  I also found out that her ex-husband didn’t allow her to hang anything unless it was measured perfectly.  Which is why I took so much joy in eyeballing every nail and when it was done she was ecstatic! She giggled every time I hammered in a nail.  Keep in mind that I studied architecture and have an excellent perspective for placing things for maximum enjoyment in a home.
  4. When we are done socializing, I typically take one person or couples into a private session.  For instance last night I was with a client I met last year who had also referred me to her family members who then worked with me via Skype while I was on my road trip for more than six months.  So seeing them both together and in person was a great reunion.  I took her into the guest room where we started with specific breathing exercises that supported the release of the ego before moving into a heart opening partner meditation that pointed out a need to focus on receiving more than giving.  Then, adding in therapeutic oils for tension points, to balance energy at her feet and clear the noise so she could sleep, she laid down and closed her eyes.  Through a guided visualization we went on a journey to energetically clear and release unwanted karmic or energetic relationship ties and ended with making statements for her highest good.  Throughout the journey, I’d share personal messages I was receiving for her and it ended with her feeling completely relaxed, rejuvenated and ready to go to sleep.  Within minutes I could hear her snoring!

Don’t be surprised if you invite me to your home and I show up with my own tea kettle, kimono, pillows, and IMAC! Because there are things that I bring that I love.  So, no matter where I am I can feel at home.

Contact me at 713-232-9796 to find out if you and your space are ready for the Full Service treatment so that while you are here and away you can feel more joy and merriment knowing everything is taken care of and with special attention, love and care.

xoxoSandySparkles