Forever For Now

After returning to Houston in 2007, I immediately registered for Kundalini Yoga and Meditation Teacher Training in Austin, TX and during the nine months of training is where I learned about the early morning amrit veil hours.  It’s the time during every day where you are closest to the veil between this world and others.  Call if your higher powers or God, whatever you choose, but it’s where you can most clearly listen to inner voice.  To me, Amrit is the elixir, the sweet goodness, laughter and love.  It’s where you know why you are here on earth, it’s where your highest truth resides and it’s the one time you can access it the easiest throughout each day.  And that’s when we would wake up at 4:30am, and in the sikh tradition, take a cold shower to turn on the body and all it’s functions, and then meditate and chant.  It’s the same tradition as waking up early, praying or singing.  Same thang. After a year or two of waking up to sing Japji Sahib, which I would define as a prayer for life, I would go back to sleep.  Waking up a few hours later, I would have the most profound dreams and insights, visions and knowings that just inspired me for the rest of the day.  So this is where my training started.

During my time as a cancer patient, and going through chemo and radiation, I was consistent about waking up at 4:30am, sitting up in bed, turning on my phone to the Japji Song.  I’d sing along to all the words I knew, then I’d just listen and ultimately when it was over, I’d fall back to my pillow and back to sleep.  Again, I’d wake up and was able to recall all the amazing visits, discussions about my life, and other experiences.  This is one of the keys to my amazing response to all the therapy I had to endure to fight cancer.  Because I was running, dating and hosting Bunco parties while I was sick.  Hardly anyone knew I was even fighting cancer.  I was even recruited once I started chemotherapy and loved my job because it also kept my mind off of fighting cancer.  That was 2009.

My trainings continued as I went through a post therapy PTSD and this is where I barely left my room and fell into a deep depression.  I’d only leave to visit friends, or to visit my sacred area in the forest by the house, where I spent a lot of time with my dogs.  No one knew what was wrong with me, and neither did I. By then, I had lost my job and every new job opportunity would just vanish.  I couldn’t get anything right. Then, I just got tired of being the odd duck with no plans and sad all the time.  I also became an emotional eater and tried to stuff it all down with food.  Until, I woke up one day and said, my Life is worth so much more than this! I got a new Oncologist and it was Dr. O that interrupted me during a stupid dribble about my life to suggest that I try antidepressants.  WHA? Serious? Me?  He totally got me.  He understood what was happening, because no one else did.  And then I tried them and they worked but only for so long.  Then, they made me crazy and stopping took time.

Throughout this time, during cancer therapy and the post cancer PTSD, I worked and lived in Houston a few times and would always end up coming back to my parents house to relax and unwind when unemployed.  They were always there for me when I needed help.  Plus, I was a total mess.  Soon, I became a consultant when short term projects would come my way and that worked out great.  Plus, this gave me time to explore so many new pathways to enlightenment.  I read numerous books at the same time, and tried it all.  Whenever I’d leave the house, I’d stumble onto a new opportunity to learn and I’d go there.  By now, I was tired of living at home and just wanted out and on my own.

I’d manifested a cool new job in Austin, TX and as soon as the offer letter was signed, I blew out of Cypress as fast as I could.  I’d found my tribe of really cool, fun and conscious hippy-like friends from ecstatic dance, circling, you name it.  There was a huge community and it allowed me to finally let my hair down and relax in happyness with myself.  I continued to journal all of my experiences one by one because my now, I believed that they were happening as compared to my environment in Cypress where my parents didn’t believe.  Once I even got so mad while holding a glass of water, that I melted the glass inside the glass and as I drank the water, not knowing what was happening, it ended up solidifying at an angle.  I kept that glass even though my parents didn’t believe that I did anything.  They have always been the force to which I had to grow while they also supported me with the time to get there. I’d even read the first ten pages of Theta Healing, and tried it during my early morning meditation time which healed my dog after she had been in the emergency room because she couldn’t walk.  After I tried Theta healing, she never had a problem walking again. And for some reason, I still didn’t believe everything that was happening.  That’s why I had to leave for my very own road trip this summer.  It was because I missed colorado and desperately wanted to camp in the mountains.  And I did and it was amazing!

Combine all of my training and experiences together and now I offer healing sessions for friends and clients via Skype.  All of my sessions are completely confidential.  People have always told me things they never told their mother, so I’m comfortable with the information.  And a solution expert, I focus on the root cause and work both energetically, and through meridian tapping to help pull the obsolete program and replace it with love and abundance.  Just the other day I was working with a new client and my body always responds to what they are feeling so I get all sorts of clues and direction during the session.  Well, this client was physically holding onto a lot of shame, and guilt over abusive situations and I suggested that she detox.  She agreed to try drinking more water and eating better that week.  But it was the next morning I received a text from  her telling me that as soon as we finished our session she had to go to the bathroom to release, and well, she kept going to the bathroom throughout the night and by the next morning she had lost five pounds and had never weighed so little in years.  My energy work continues to expand and grow and as a mirror for my clients, we are achieving great success in short periods of time.

I’ve had many friends and advocates pass away due to Cancer and when one friend came to visit me, she didn’t know that she had passed.  She kept urging me to come with her and in my spiritual trance, with tears streaming down my cheeks, I kept shaking my head no.  Then, she shows me what it would have been like if I would have said Yes, by showing me ahead of me, my body just sinking against the wall.  you can imagine that this freaked me out, but still in this warped trance with her talking to me, she finally left me alone but not for long, when she tried to get me to come with her again.  You see I was driving towards town in Houston on a 8 lane highway when all of a sudden my phone makes the weirdest sound I’ve ever heard and it wakes me up to correct my driving as I was headed into another lane.  She tried to take me herself.  That’s when the grief set in and when I got to my destination, I just started crying so hard and my body would barely move from my seat.  I waited until I could function and took myself home directly.  The point is, that now when I am in sessions, I can also sometimes connect with others from the other side.  Once the portal is open, I am a witness which has helped many of my clients with closure for their family and friends on the other side.

What I enjoy currently is the fact that Kung Fu Panda 3 is a journey that explains the under world, while the series on Netflix called Stranger Things, talks about the under side.  More and more media is starting to venture into the other dimensions that have always been there.  Just like seeing fairies, it’s when we meet them half way and we are accepting of the experience do we open our own doors to enhanced perception.

Feel free to contact me to schedule a session from the comfort of your own home.  Sessions are typically 90 minutes and there are many ways to easily pay for the time.  Let me help you leap frog out of those old and outdated patterns and programs and into more abundance and joy.  Life is to be experienced!

With Love and Light,
Sparkle Sandy