About a week ago, I was on my front porch for my usual morning meditation. It’s quiet out there and to the west I have a set of wind chimes hanging while the entire area is surrounded by plants or the house. Typically, I face East which is toward the house, but that day I wanted to turn towards my right a bit, and I ended up facing the front door. Out of the corner of my right eye, I caught a glimpse of the pillar and as I turned to see what it was, a small little gecko is on the brick support for the pillar and about eye level with me. He is about three feet from me and when I notice him he turns his head away from like he’s hiding. I put my hand out towards him and look around the corner of the post to catch his eye and seeing me, he quickly turns all the way around and is now facing me.
Sitting back now that I’ve got his attention, I am still cooing to him in lovely tones, and then I put my hand out to him as if he wants to come see me. Then, he quickly moves forward crouching off the end of the brick lip and I know he is about to jump, when I must have closed my eyes and yelped unconsciously, because a split second later I opened my eyes, and still facing the same direction, I instantly hear a sound burst of my voice bounce off of the neighbors garage in the distance.
Completely surprised that to hear my own voice echoing back at me and not remembering saying anything, the gecko is not on his perch any more. I immediately look down at my lap and since I’m wearing what I slept in, I see the bright green and red colors from my scooby doo Christmas boxers and notice, but I’m not sure from the bright green in my boxers which is about the same color as the gecko, but maybe it’s a little tail among the folds? I immediately look around for the gecko and even move out of being seated in an easy pose, but no gecko.
The thought did occur to me that maybe it’s all a dream? Maybe it’s not real? I swore there was a gecko there a second ago. Wow, I am thinking. The world is so powerful. Accepting the experience as a gift, I rest back into easy pose staring towards the front door and am about to close my eyes to start meditating when to the left I see the gecko about three feet away from me!
Not even skipping a beat, I turn my head back to center, close my eyes and meditate. And you know I have not been out there since this happened? That gecko took about a half second to decide to take a leap of faith onto me and heck, I had my hand out and was calling to him. Why not?!? If I were the gecko I would have done the same thing. But seriously, why did I not accept the fact that he was coming to me, close my eyes, and yelp? It’s called receiving and it’s been a tough transition to learn how to not push away good things coming my way. I know it sounds crazy, but receiving has been my topic of learning and it’s scary for me.
The gecko is teaching me that taking a leap of faith is necessary and fun. Even when there is a welcome mat set out for the experience, there is so much to learn because you have no idea what to expect really. And that’s when I am learning to be consciously aware of what I am saying and doing because it is all coming! The leap of faith is not only about jumping but accepting what is coming to you.
The gecko showed no fear. Just accepted my invitation and come to me. I hope I didn’t scare him when he landed and then stayed hidden most likely among my boxer shorts and then continued on his way.